Play the Background

"I know I'm safest when I'm in Your will, and trust Your Word

I know I'm dangerous when I trust myself, my vision blurred

And I ain't got no time to play life's foolish games

Got plenty aims, but do they really Glorify Your name

And it's a shame, the way I want to do these things for You

Don't even cling to you, take time to sit and gleam from You

Seems You were patient in my ignorance

If ignorance is bliss, it's 'cause she never heard of this" - Lecrae: Background

Today, I received a convicting message from my student ministry. The question we were all asking ourselves at the end of the sermon was, " What in my my life disgusts God?"

Yes it is true God loves us unconditionally even in the mistakes we make each day, but God is also a just God who will bring judgement upon us and for good reason. Many times we ease our way through the Christian life, clinging to God's love but loosing sight that He is the ultimate judge and ultimate King who presides over us. All sin disgusts God and if we are not on our knees in repentance than how much do we really care? We can sing worship songs on Sunday afternoon, but how much do we really mean the words we say? Actions do speak louder than words after all. 

I am convicted as much as anyone of not falling on my knees for all the times I have done wrong. And I promise, God did not convict me in an easy loving way. It's hard to realize all the guilt and shame I have in my life for not repenting of my sins and following my own will. Many times, God has to break us in order to reach us.  

For me, I confess, humility has not been my aim. I can say I strive for it, by my actions have not matched up. I have strived for a college decision best for myself, for my time to be used in the most productive means for myself, for others to see my efforts, and so on. I have failed to be a daughter humbly serving my mother, doing chores when unasked, seeing the needs of others above my own, and most of all, lacking to put GOD before myself! :'( 

Sadly, I will always fail, but that doesn't mean I won't try. Being a Christian is one of the hardest things you will do in your life. If it is not, than I ask you, Are you truly in love with Christ? Do you really fear God? 

I've been listening to these lyrics by Lecrae in a song titled Background. I have thought so much about the lyrics, I even dreamed I was listening to the song!? But mainly I am committed to playing the background. I am not that impressive at all except for the one gift I have, and that is Christ. Without Him, I am honestly amounted to nothing, so there is no point to glorifying myself. 

Dying to self,

Grace