July 13, 2011

Exactly a year ago, I was on a mission trip to Boston with my youth group. It was on July 13th that I felt the presence of God. He was placing a calling in my life for full time ministry. With tears filling my eyes, I spoke with my youth pastor who confirmed a peace about my calling and who has guided me this past year. In my heart I desired to be a missionary. The world would tell me this was not my will, but I knew deep in my heart and by the presence of God that He wanted me to be a missionary. I was anxious this past year trying to figure out where I was headed and what I was doing with my life. I knew God had called me to full time ministry, but the world put many obstacles in my way.

It is tonight, One year later, as I am here in a Messianic congregation in Cabo, Mexico, that God has revealed to me His grace. It did not hit me what day it was today until the spirit of God filled our congregation and almost everyone accepted the holy spirit into their lives tonight by the grace of God. It was beautiful and tears stained my cheeks as I tried to take pictures and document everything. Then it hit me. Exactly a year ago, I felt God's presence calling me to be a missionary and now here I am, in Cabo, living in a tent inside a church; a missionary for God.

I was overwhelmed by God's faithfulness and grace. I fell crying. I was so overwhelmed by this grace God had shown me. Many came up to me to give me hugs as I prayed and just held me as I sobbed. They did not know what was going on in my heart, but that had love for me. It was that love that has shown me so much grace being here. I am astonished by such love in this church. God is pouring out His love to me through the people of this church and I am truely thankful for where God has brought me this past year.

I am so overwhelmed, I am sure my words are not very clear, but what is clear is that God is a God of Love.