Why Me?

Some days I wonder, why am I here in Mexico, spending hours and hours trying to love people who don't know how to love back, trying to save lives for the kingdom of God, when I am surrounded by satan's playground? Wouldn't it have been easier for me to just choose to go to college and live a normal life of a college student?

Some days I truely ask myself this, but then I find God's word and He reminds me why I am here, and why I am an exception. Why some may ask?
Because I was chosen for such a time as this.

Esther 4:14 "For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"

I read a recent devotion that put this in another perspective for me;
" Suppose our entire graduating class was given a million dollars as a graduation gift. Suppose we were immature and wasted it over the next ten years on pleasurable activities. Suppose further that one of our friends did not join the merrymaking. He used his money instead to fund cancer research, and after ten years actually discovered a cure.

During our ten years of merrymaking, we always felt bad for this friend, who missed out on all the fun. The ’round-the-world cruises, world-class tour packages, fine dining and all-night parties were memorable; we would always invite him, but he consistently turned us down. Now, after ten years of merrymaking, our money has disappeared while his money is saving lives. Now we realize how right he was.

We all could have accomplished something of lasting value with our money. We could have built eternal edifices that would save lives and improve standards of living. Instead, we wasted it on temporal pleasures of no real value. We used to feel bad for our friend, who failed to enjoy his money, but as it turned out, we now feel bad for ourselves."

If you are the odd one out from the crowd, remember, Yeshua (Jesus) was the greatest outcast that lived among this world, yet Yeshua made the greatest difference by saving us from our sins and dying for us on a cross. Are you willing to take up your cross and follow Him?